Thoughts

Be Careful What You Wish For

She has mentioned a few things that she’s always wanted to do but hadn’t yet.

I told her I would do them (of course) and one in particular made me wince but at the same time eager to do it. Eager to be the first, eager to give her something nobody else had. I find myself desperate to make her fantasies come true. Even something that scares me.

Maybe a little bit of it is to prove my adoration, but most of it is to please her, to give her something she hasn’t had yet, to know that she can use me for whatever she wants.

Tonight, one of those things happened.

I was…ok bear with me because this sounds like something out of a porno but then again, so much of what she and I have done sounds like it comes out of a porno. A very high budget, well written porno.

I was in her kitchen, naked, doing the dishes and wearing a collar and a brand new ball-stretcher (2.5 inches). After I finished I asked if I could eat and she offered me some leftovers she had delivered.   

“Oh, wait”, she said with a wicked smile, “give me your cock-head”.

I knew what was coming, it was one of those things I had winced about. One of those things she had always wanted to do and now she was going to do it.

She reached among the leftover burger and fries and grabbed a jalapeno pepper, tore out a small chunk of it and slowly slid it inside my urethra so just a small piece was visible.

What happened next was a blur. A very painful blur.

At first I was hard, hard because it felt a little warm but mostly hard because I could see how much it turned her on.

It hurt like a son-of-a-bitch and she had a very big smile on her face.

“Do you want it out?”

“Yes!” I stammered

“Then you’ll have to cum it out”.

I had serious doubts if I would be able to or not but the next thing I knew, I was on my knees, jerking this burning piece of flesh between my legs

I was close, I could have came right then but at that moment her best friend came out of the bathroom, she had been dying her hair and came out to see what all the commotion was about.

“God I love coming over to your house!” she exclaimed as she saw me kneeling and jerking off in front of her smiling friend.

“Should I let him come?” my owner asked her best friend

“No”

“Fuck”, I thought. I was so close, I wanted so badly to come, more from the desire to expel that evil evil pepper, than to experience an orgasm.

I stopped and the pain began to increase even more. The burning became unbearable and I started to shake and whimper.

“My poor baby, do you want me to make it stop?” she asked.

“Yes…” deep breath, wince, whimper “please” and she ran off to grab some yogurt from the kitchen, I think she asked me where it was in the fridge but I was in no condition to answer.

Moments later she was rubbing yogurt into my urethra and I could feel it starting to cool but not enough. Her best friend returned with a bowl of milk and I was told to “dip your dick in the milk”.

I did.

I felt like Yosemite Sam dropping his ass into a barrel of water after Bugs had just lit him on fire.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

It wasn’t over though.

She made me hold that position for ten minutes. My muscles aching as though I was in some convoluted yoga position. As I breathed heavily and moaned, she would kiss me and stroke my hair.

Oh and she took photos.

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That was about an hour ago. She asked me to write about it and so here I am, naked, still a bit numb, laying on the floor next to her couch as she pets my back and occasionally steps on my balls and smiles at me.

Sometimes, when you get what you wish for, it’s better than you imagined.

Behind Closed Doors

I thought we were done for the moment.

Others had watched, she beat me, brought me to tears, held me and then began to untie me.

The audience commented how hot our scene was then left, closing the door and and leaving us alone.

We weren’t done yet though.

She kissed the remainder of my tears away, telling me how happy she was with me and then kissed me.

Hard.

She didn’t bother removing the leather ankle cuffs from me, only removing my hands from the leather cuffs so I could hold her.

I was naked already and before too long so was she, pulling off her corset and underwear then pulling me to the ground.

She reached down and slid me inside of her. A gasp escaped us both.

She rode me, I held her hips and within a minute her eyes were rolling, her back arched and every muscle in her body singing.   

What’s the opposite of sympathy pains? Sympathy pleasure? That’s what I always feel. It’s like I’m mid-orgasm with her.

I moaned and and she quickly pressed her hand over my mouth. Just a few feet away outside that door people where socializing.

I can’t remember how many orgasms she had but before too long she was satisfied and slid off of me. The ache of feeling everything perfect in the world leaving my body overcame me and I’m sure I made a moan that said “please”.

I snuck outside the door, covering my arousal as best I could, grabbed my clothes and joined her again.   

There she was, smiling with that lustful grin she gets when she’s used me.

I melted.

Not all of me, but most of me.

“Fuck”, I said with a sigh and a smile.

“Fuck indeed” she smiled.

Behind Closed Doors

I thought we were done for the moment.

Others had watched, she beat me, brought me to tears, held me and then began to untie me.

The audience commented how hot our scene was then left, closing the door and and leaving us alone.

We weren’t done yet though.

She kissed the remainder of my tears away, telling me how happy she was with me and then kissed me.

Hard.

She didn’t bother removing the leather ankle cuffs from me, only removing my hands so I could hold her.

I was naked already and before too long so was she, pulling off her corset and underwear then pulling me to the ground.

She reached down and slid me inside of her. A gasp escaped us both.

She rode me, I held her hips and within a minute her eyes were rolling, her back arched and every muscle in her body singing.   

What’s the opposite of sympathy pains? Sympathy pleasure? That’s what I always feel. It’s like I’m mid-orgasm with her.

I moaned and and she quickly pressed her hand over my mouth. Just a few feet away outside that door people where socializing.

I can’t remember how many orgasms she had but before too long she was satisfied and slid off of me. The ache of feeling everything perfect in the world leaving my body overcame me and I’m sure I made a moan that said “please”.

I snuck outside the door, covering my arousal as best I could, grabbed my clothes and joined her again.   

There she was, smiling with that lustful grin she gets when she’s used me.

I melted.

Not all of me, but most of me.

“Fuck”, I said with a sigh and a smile.

“Fuck indeed” she smiled.

Kissing

With all of the wonderful and complex things in this lifestyle, I’ve become obsessed with kissing lately.

No..not strap-on, beatings, bondage or anything like that. Though I’d be lying if I said those weren’t passing through my mind as well.

It’s kissing that I’ve grown to appreciate now more than ever.

I feel the same electricity as I did when I first discovered when I was a teenager. After I became more sexually experienced, kissing became something that just happened, it was in the background. It was an appetizer, not the main course.

Now though, with her, it’s like a whole meal in itself. We’ve had scenes that involved nothing but kissing (with the occasional grape thrown in) that have been just as sexually satisfying as anything else out there.

It’s intimacy in it’s purest form.

Lips touching, tongues grazing, breath synchronizing, moans escaping.

Don’t get me wrong. It’s not like everyone I’ve been with since my teens have been bad kissers. It’s just with her, it’s different. I really can’t tell you what it is but it’s there when we kiss.

Food tastes better, orgasms more powerful, sex more sexual and even cuddling more..cuddly.

Sometimes she’ll grab the back of my head when she’s mid orgasm and press her lips to mine.

Other times I’ll just spend time kissing her unmoving lips as she comes down from an orgasm. Soft, shaking flushed lips.

Is it emotional? It’s it chemistry? Mutual desire?

Whatever it is, it’s there and I caught myself moaning a few times while writing this.

It Started Out.. (Part 2)

Continued from Part 1

(I’d go into all of the dirty details but….this day was such a milestone for me on so many ways, I’d like to leave some things for just she and I)

I worked for another hour or so, marking off the list of chores she had assigned to me.

I left to drop off a dress at the dry cleaners and pick up a load of laundry. On my way back I sent her a text message asking if I could grab a snack on my way home. I was in such a rush on my way there a few hours earlier that I didn’t have time to eat lunch and by this time is was almost 5. She responded with “Yes but be very quick. You’re in trouble”.

“Fuck” I thought. I had been so careful. Did I break something? Ruin a piece of clothing?

I skipped the snack and rushed back to her place since I wanted to quickly fix whatever I may have ruined.

I buzzed her door and nervously opened the door to her apartment and saw her there.   

I was dumbstruck…..yes…even dumber than normal. She had put on heels and was now it felt as though she was almost towering over me (and I’m 6’2″). I didn’t think anything of it really, if I had to guess she was going to meet up with someone while I cleaned.

So why was I in trouble?

Seems I had let a big pool of water collect on her bathroom floor before I left to drop off her laundry. I apologized and was about to clean it up when she said one word with confidence and strength: “Strip!”

I did of course and not long after she had me bent over the side of her bed and was telling me about the importance of being careful.

She had me count out the corrective swats. 50 of them. My voice was shaking and I felt conflicted. I was turned on by the situation but felt bad that I had made the mistake to warrant it.

Afterwards she ran her hand along my back and cupped my ass, commenting on how warm it felt before ordering me to get on all fours on the floor and kiss her feet to thank her for correcting me.

I’d never been treated in such a way. Whatever way that was. I was confused, turned on, humbled and I felt bad for the mistake.

I’ve never considered myself a foot fetishist, I’m more of an all-body fetishist and it was making my head spin to be able to finally put my lips on her skin.

She had me stop and then take her shoes off. My hands were shaking with desire and being in an almost immediate mental sub-space that made undoing the buckles of her shoes next to impossible but I finally got them off.

Here’s the funny part: She laid down on the bed and said “continue”. I had assumed she meant that I should continue cleaning so I got back up and she quickly corrected me. A big smile on her face showed she was amused.   

I returned to kissing her feet and she could feel how nervous and turned on I was. My body was shaking.

I kept kissing her feet, not knowing if that’s all she wanted or not until she said “you’re making the rest of my body jealous”.

I moved on to other parts of her body and I wish I could say I was smooth and confident but I was not. I was fumbling, so eager that she’d remind me to take my time and not to rush it.

She’d show me how she liked to be touched and kissed. She’d moan and smile when I was doing the right thing and she’d kindly correct me when I was doing something that didn’t agree with her. Later she told me how she liked the fact that she could correct me without my getting offended.

My lips and tongue on her body felt like electricity all through my body. I was thrilled I was able to please her. We laid next to each other for a few minutes before she sent me back to work.

I cleaned for what felt like an hour before I heard the bell ring and I’d be at the foot of her bed where she’d want my mouth again and after she’d send me back to work. I’d clean and work and a couple of hours later I’d find myself a third time by her bed where she’d ask me, “Do you think you know my body well enough to make me cum a third time?”   

I did.

Afterwards she said something that will always be burned in my brain.

“I think I’m going to keep you”.

She did.