I have been a paying member on Nerve for almost two years. I’ve been on alt and collarme for….well for ages.
I joined Nerve because a Domme friend suggested it.
“You’ll probably find more non-pros on Nerve and more people open to relationships, women are fairly honest and open about what they’re looking for on Nerve.”
I had changed my profile a number of times. At first I merely hinted at being submissive, had tons of “winks” and emails but none from any that were actually dominant or even open to it. I sent countless emails, went on so many dates that it makes my head spin, but didn’t meet a single woman even open to being dominant.
Now my profile is much more blunt, I come right out and explain that I’m only interested in women who are at least curious about BDSM. Now I only get emails asking “what’s BDSM?” and the winks have gone down as well. Two years and not one Domme.
Until this week.
She emailed me asking how “a sweet boy from the midwest became interested in BDSM”. We emailed a few times and she almost demanded that we meet. We met the day after our first email.
I arrived at the bar and spotted her instantly and she smiled at me from across the room. She was even more beautiful than her profile photos.
We talked, she laughed almost the entire time. I was in my element. I was on! I was charming, funny and was hitting this one out of the park.
Then she said something that I had heard before, something that made my stomach hurt the second I heard it. I almost excused myself to use the bathroom because I could feel my eyes getting a little watery.
“I’ve never been with a truly submissive man before.”
She didn’t say it as though it was something she was interested in doing she just said it as a fact. I knew exactly what she meant when she said it.
She’s an Angelina Jolie type:
She’s an incredibly beautiful, powerful and devastatingly smart dominant woman. She can get ANY guy to submit to her. She’s never even heard of Collarme and has only gone to Alt for a good laugh, never to browse or look for a submissive man. She doesn’t need to go there.
She enjoys making a man do something he wouldn’t normally do, she loves the challenge. With me, there’s no challenge, she knows I’ll eagerly submit to her desires and because of that I’m no use to her. She made several comments about how there’s nothing hotter than making a man submit who normally wouldn’t.
There I was sitting across from every submissive man’s dream, she was the reason I moved to New York and yet I’d have a better chance with her if she didn’t know I was submissive. I’d have a better chance if she thought I didn’t want to do everything she enjoyed.
She asked all the normal questions the Angelina Jolie type will ask:
-You’ve been looking for almost all your life and you’ve never had a D/s relationship? Why? How’s that possible?
-I would think most women would want a boy like you. You’re attractive, smart, funny and want nothing more than to please a dominant woman.
-Have you tried CraigsList?
-Have you tried meeting a vanilla woman and then telling her after she’s fallen in love with you? If a woman loved you she’s give you whatever you want.
-Are you too picky?
We had fun and she want’s to be friends.
I have a few friends like her:
I’ll get to hear all of the dirty details about how she gets vanilla men to submit to her in ways they never thought they would. I’ll console her and give her advice when she’s having problems “training” her vanilla boyfriend. She will constantly be amazed when she hears my stories about trying to find a woman like her and she will try to console me even though she has no frame of reference. She will make the occasional joke about dominating me but never will. I will ache for her every time I see her.
Oh well, maybe she has a sister.
I’m taking my Nerve profile down once it expires next month.
