Why is it I don’t ask someone if she wants to play with me?
I have yet another good example:
Ages ago I met someone I was dying to play with. If that meant sex or play…anything. I just wanted to experience something with her. I built up my courage (beer helped) and put it out there as sincerely as I could. She didn’t say yes and she didn’t say no. She just…..nothing.
That was my answer.
Now and then our paths will cross. We’ll exchange pleasantries but that will be it. Nothing more.
It’s uncomfortable and I feel like a total ass.
I don’t imagine in a million years that it will happen now. I’m just interested in friendship with her. But now, because it’s out there, there will be no friendship it seems. Just a casual hello now and then.
I pretty much ruined what could have been a great platonic friendship because I expressed my desires.
Why in the world would I risk that again?
I know some would say “what if she had said yes”.
True. But she didn’t.