It’s very rare, but occasionally I’ll meet someone who I feel an instant “click” with. I’m not only physically attracted to them but also attracted to them in a psychological way as well.
It’s such a bitter-sweet feeling because it’s great to click with someone but horrible not knowing if the feeling is mutual or not. I need to take mind-reading lessons. I feel desperate to please them in some way. It’s such a powerless feeling to not know what someone wants from you, if anything at all. It’s so silly to have those feelings when you just met someone.
I could be talking to her about the weather and yet my mind will be racing, betraying me, saying other things:
“Yeah this weather is crazy isn’t it?
Is there ANYTHING I can do for you?
“Yeah I know, I wish we could have at least one day of sunlight soon”.
Please, just tell me what you want!
Tie me up, use me, rape me, let me worship you.
“Really? A low pressure system coming from the north? Wow, that’ll be quite the storm.”
Ugh, I’m dying to clean for you, anything that will require me to be on my knees
“No I really think this will pass, we should have decent weather by the weekend, great for going out in the park”
Would you like to lead me around by a leash or beat the crap out of me?
“Cool, hey it was great meeting you”
Can I please be your friend?
Please note, I’ve had a few beers while writing this and am feeling more powerless than normal.