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The Week Of Beatings Continued

· January 17, 2010 · Thoughts · , , , · One Comment

Day 6: Once again I’m both scared and looking forward to it. She wallops me for 15 minutes non-stop. Again and again. Time stops in my mind and when she’s done I can barely move I’m so worn out. I’m tied up, drooling and moaning afterwards. She helps me up and we cuddle until I fall asleep.

Day 7: The last day. She ties me to our new leather couch. My elbows tied to my knees and she uses a variety of implements on me including a wooden spoon. I’m almost sad when it’s over.

I can tell how I’ve progressed over the course of the week. I’m glad that it worked. I’m not sure if my tolerance for pain is higher but I noticed a few changes in how I viewed the pain.

Early on, when the pain was very very intense, my mind would start to play tricks on me. I’d start to wonder if she really cared about me or if she was upset with me. Punishment play, when it’s really really painful is still connected with disappointment in some ways. This week helped change that a bit.

Now it’s been two days since she’s had me bent over and I do miss it. Not just the intimacy and the intensity, but how hot it makes her.

Good thing there are plenty of other things that get her hot as well.

I’m a very lucky boy.

The Week Of Beatings

· January 13, 2010 · Thoughts · · 6 Comments

As part of my training, she’s started something new. Every day for a week I’m to bring her a handful of rope and an implement for her to beat me with.

She’s doing it to increase my pain tolerance and to help associate pain with pleasure.

I won’t go into the dirty details but I can say this so far.

Day 1: I was really looking forward to it. Antisipated her hurting me, making me sweat, moan and cry.

Day 2: I was scared. She took me so far the night before. I was worried I wouldn’t be able to take it. My ass still hurt from the night before.

Day 3: I was so worried. All day long I looked at the clock and said to myself “15 hours until she does it again”. “Oh no…now it’s only 6 hours!” “Fuck how am I going to do this, it’s only 2 hours away”. She has me pick out the implement and I choose the softest thing I can find. She vetoes it and I make another choice, the heavy leather paddle, she accepts.

Day 4: Something changed…Instead of dreading it I was eager for it even though my ass was still sore and red. Instead of looking at the clock with worry, I looked at it with anticipation.

Day 5: I’m swamped with work on my 2nd job, I’m feeling stressed and overwhelmed. Midnight comes quickly and she makes me cry from a beating faster than I have before.

..to be continued

Rope Share Returns!

· January 8, 2010 · Thoughts · No Comments

I’m really excited to see the return of the Rope Share in NYC.

Not just because it’s a great way to learn new rope techniques, but because a few friends of mine are the brains behind the operation.

The next Rope Share is on the 23rd of this month and the assistant for this class is my very good friend V. Reading about a rope class where V is an assistant is like taking a beginners class on learning to play guitar where Peter Frampton is the assistant, you think “if that’s who’s the assistant, you KNOW the main instrustor will be damn good”.

The best part about it is the environment. It’s a very friendly, relaxed and open place to share skills and ideas. It’s not like most rope classes where there’s someone in front of a room showing you how to do a tie, it’s everyone in the room practicing, laughing and learning (ok now I sound like the children’s television workshop). And it’s only 25 bucks!

More Details:

The Rope Share is a bondage workshop that is structured to fit your skill levels and interests. There is one highly skilled rope instructor and one teaching assistant. The attendance will be limited to 12 students.

This month’s Rope Share workshop is a concentrated class for the beginner/novice. The instructor will teach you the basics of safety, negotiations and the elemental ties needed to start your bondage exploration.

This is a lab-environment setting and we will practice on one another. Please be open to both tie and be tied for the sake of education. Please wear comfortable clothing as there is no nudity during the class.

Bring Rope: 4 lengths of 25ft. rope; 2 lengths of 50ft.; and safety scissors. Cotton, nylon, hemp, and jute are all fine.

To sign up, send an email to RopeShare@gmail.com Title the subject line as “Novice Rope Share Sign Up” and

include the following information in your email:

1. Your name (Scene name or legal)

2. Contact number and email address

3. Rope bondage experience and skill level ( Please be brief)

4. What you are interested in learning

5. How you heard about this workshop

Sign up now as places are expected to fill quickly! Beginners to advanced rope players are all welcome!! If you have never tried rope before, but are curious, this is a safe space to share and learn rope bondage.

A New Podcast And Congratulations!

· January 5, 2010 · Thoughts · · 3 Comments

A new Masocast is up with an interview featureing Sascha talking about different kinds of non-monogamy, advice for men who email her, merging her halves and more.

As always, you’re suggestions, donations, comments and voicemails are really appreciated.

Subscribe here:

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Or listen directly on the Masocast website.

On another note:

Ever since people started finding out about our relationship, something has been happening over and over and over again that has become a bit of a joke between she and I.

People are congratulating me.

Over and over. Via email, in person, on the phone, text messages, facebook, twitter. I’m getting congratulated.

Not her. Just me.

Recently someone was standing in front of both of us and I was congratulated. Again, not her, just me.

Maybe they know what she’s getting into and don’t wish THAT on anyone.

Or maybe they know how much I’ve bitched and moaned as I looked for her.

Either way, it’s our latest running joke.

Found Femdom: Agent Provocateur

· December 28, 2009 · Found Femdom · · 5 Comments

A reader (thank you!!!) sent me this found femdom image.

The only thing about this image is the impending punch in the face. I prefer to imagine female dominance coming from a place of sexual arousal and pleasure not anger, though who knows…maybe this is what she’s into.

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It’s part of the same ad campaign that Agent Provocateur ran along with this video:

Agent Provocateur


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