Just a few days before I’ll be seeing “her” again and I’m horny as fuck.
So why don’t I do something about it? Why don’t I just jerk off two or three times today like I would normally?
She said she doesn’t want me to.
I both love it and hate it.
I could though, just sneak off in the shower and take care of it. She’d never know. But somehow I can’t.
With regular masturbation I can fuck for hours. After a few days without I’ll be lucky to last a half an hour.
She says it makes me even more submissive, that I can be a bit of a smartass or something. Something about preferring me whimpering aching, quivering and hard. Hell I can’t even think straight at this point.
When she first said it I was worried that It meant I acted as though I could care less about her desires unless I was horny. Turns out that’s not the case, but there’s a big difference in my eagerness when I’m…eager.
Why does part of me love it? I have no clue. Well, it has something to do about control and being wanted and taken but my body is screaming at me so loudly right now that I can’t think enough to analyze it.
When I’m finally face to face with her again we’ll exchange pleasentries and talk about how her day was and probably talk about the headlines or something but no matte what we’re talking about, no matter what is coming out of my mouth, one thing will be flashing through my mind and other parts.
Please! Just! fuck me!