Thoughts

Not Sure What To Do

I’ve been busier than normal lately.

My day job has been more stressful than normal.   Talks of downsizing, moving departments to other areas of the country and my favorite line from a boss: “Hey, we’re giving you twice as much work and aren’t going to pay you for it, just be happy you have a job”

On top of that my second job has been picking up steam too.  I’m grateful for the extra hours and since I can do it from home it’s a bonus.   Plus any job that allows me to do it while sitting next to my owner is pretty damn good.

Plus there’s the podcast.  I never seem to have as much time as I’d like for that.

I feel overwhelmed.   After finishing work for the night I realized I hadn’t cleaned the bathroom yet and my hands went from my laptop to the bathtub.   I loved the the mental shift.  Going from using one part of my brain to another was relaxing.

Manual labor, that’s where I can really reflect on my day.  Plus, I’m doing it for her.

All that and I’ve been looking for a third job.   I’m just not where I want to be financially and if I can find something to give me a few hours a week for 6 months to a year, i can put my finances from the red to the black.

It scares me a bit though, if I found an overnight job, I’d go from there to my day job, then come home and sleep until my night job.

It’s not the sleep I’m worried about.    Before moving to New York I had a job that required me to wake up at 4am after going to bed around midnight.

What worries me is having so much less time with her.   Sure we’d have the weekends, but frankly I don’t know if I could handle it.

We’ll see.   I’ve sent a few applications so who knows what will come of that.

Meanwhile my hands smell like Soft Scrub, I’m writing this next to my owner, my lover, my Mistress, my girlfriend and my friend.

Life is pretty fucking good.

 

 

 

 

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Instructional Toy

She’s been teaching classes one-on-one lately and has had quite a few people sign up.

Recently one of her students wanted to learn fire-play and I was lucky enough to be the subject for the lesson.

I’ve been in this situations a number of times on a variety of different subjects.   Each time it triggers an interesting part of my mind.

The part that responds to objectification.

Unlike most times we play, I’m not the center of attention.  It’s as though I am providing a service by being there.

When she teaches these we feel closer to each other afterwards, it makes me feel great afterwards when her student walks away after learning something they hadn’t considered before and…well…it’s…fucking fun!

She’s even started a new website to tell the world what she offers in her one-on-one classes.

It’s called My Partner is Kinky.   If you or someone you know is looking to learn some basic or advanced play, now you know where to look!:)

 

 

My First Gangbang

I sat back and watched in awe as I watched her fuck another woman.  I wanted to go up behind her and touch her back, kiss her neck and lick her all over as she thrust deeply inside this stranger.  I was probably in shock at how hot this vision was.

I wasn’t sure what the protocol was but opted to play the support role.  She asked me to take her heels off and I rushed to do so.  Now that she had more leverage she began to thrust even harder.

The only thing I was aware of was how hot this scene was and the increasing strain inside my leather pants.

After a long hard fucking, she pulled out and turned to me with a smile.

“Now it’s your turn.”

She walked up to a friend at the party and told her she was going to fuck me and asked if she wanted to fuck me too.  Her eyes lit up and she had a big smile on her face so I knew what the answer was without her saying anything.

I followed her to one of the rooms where there was a long bondage table, a spanking bench and a few other pieces of kinky furniture set up.   Some people were fucking in the corner others were making out in another.

She had me strip and get on all fours on the spanking bench.  She took the a gag and slid it in my mouth and strapped it in tightly then walked behind me.  I was nervous.  I’ve never been fucked while a bunch of others were watching much less by more than one person at a time.   I also knew that this was probably something that wasn’t very common at this party.

Yet there I was, on all fours across the leather spanking bench.

Pulling my hair back, she whispered how first she was going to fuck me, then how she was going to love watching a bunch of other women fuck me too.

To be continued…

 

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