…political ad of the month.
httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qq8Uc5BFogE
Curious Things
I was asked to make a list of the things I’m most curious about. Thing I’ve had on my must-try-before-I-die list.
Chastity- Maymay wrote about his extended chastity here. Obviously my daydreams aren’t nearly as close as what the reality would probably be. I imagine being locked up and taken out whenever she (whoever she is) wants me. More of an anti-masturbation device than a no-orgasm device. Who knows, maybe she’ll want me locked up for longer durations, or maybe not locked up at all.
CBT- I have limited experience in this area but the hints of it that I’ve experienced have been eye opening. Probably because there are a million wonderfully evil things a woman can do in this area. As with all kinds of pain, it’s limited to those who really get off on giving pain. I hate the idea of feeling pain anywhere but I love the idea of taking the pain for someone who gets off on giving it. Everything from sounds, bondage, clamps, clothespins, you name it and I’m curious about it. The mental image of sounds is enough to make me whimper.
Anal play- I’ve experienced strap-on play a few times. A few times isn’t nearly enough. I’ve only experienced the wonders of the prostate once for maybe a minute. My head nearly exploded. There’s also something very intriguing about plugs and hooks. I have no idea what the appeal of anal play is for a dominant woman. Is it the idea of violating a man? I know what the appeal is on my end of things but the motivation for a woman escapes me. If I knew the motivation it might help me find someone to motivate into doing it.
Predicament Bondage- I was talking to someone the other night who mentioned how much she loved doing it to her boyfriend. I hadn’t thought much about it until I saw how much she loved it. Her face lit up with this genuine evil smile. It’s motivated me enough to read more about it and keep my eyes open for someone with an evil smile.
Electrical play- Nuff said. This is a big question mark for me. I’ve heard it can be either very painful or very pleasurable.
Hypnosis- I’ve heard it’s intense.
Owned- I know now that my previous goal (I wrote about it here) of having a weekend where I was totally owned and controlled by someone is totally unrealistic. Finding someone who wants to own me for a few hours might be more attainable.
She Wants To Meet Me
Here’s a recent email conversation I had with a woman who emailed me via Fetlife. She said she’d be visiting NYC for a job interview.
Her: Ok dear any plans yet for thursday and friday?I’ll keep you posted on my flight details..hmm the hotel prices aint bad maybe when i arrive i’ll lodge into a nearby hotel until i find a good apartment…i’m worried right now i recieved a disturbing news from my travel agent and it migh cause delay or flight cancellation if i don’t solve it asap i’ll explain in my next email…I can’t wait to see you…
Me: Sounds great! Hope it works out for you! I’m eager to meet you and see if we click.
Her: Thanks for your concern…Sweety Something came up i just recieved a call from my travel agent he confirmed everything is ready including ticketing…I want you to help me with a favour i want to get my travel agent paid don’t get me wrong am not asking for money but just a little favour.this is delaying my flight itineary..
There is a client owing me some money and i intend to use part of the money to pay my travel agent and this client is ready to pay me but he is insisting on paying with a cashier check because he is short of cash,do you know what this is?The Problem is it can’t be cashed at my current location because the Cashier Check were drawn under US FUNDS..
All you have to do is this….When you get the Cashier Check take the check to your bank,Cash the check then head straight to the nearest western union location to send the Cash to my travel agent thats all am asking for,this won’t cost you a dime just a little of your time.maybe i5 mins max…Its obvious you are a very honest,straight forward and open minded person thats something i’ve noticed and liked about you.All i need from you now is Your full name and physical address to ensure the Cashier Check get to you including phone number for easier communication..I am waiting…..
Humiliation (private)……………………Massage (giving) Humiliation (public)………………..flogged…………boots kissing. boots licking….. Whipping…………………………………..Licking (non-sexual) Video (watching others)…………………………..Leather restraints Verbal humiliation……………………………………Kneeling Strap-on-dildos (sucking on)……..,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,Hot waxing. Tickling…………………….Hot oils Teasing………Nipple clamps…………….Cuffs (leather). Speech restrictions (when, what)………………….Spanking. Serving as ashtray…………………..Boot worship Caning……………………………Wooden paddles Chains………………………………Chastity belts (short term). Clothespins………………………………..Cock rings/straps. Collars (worn in private)……………….Collars (worn in public). cuffs (metal)………………………..does….Over-the-knee spanking Double penetration………………………..Blindfolds inforced chastity………………………..Erotic dance (for audience). Anal plugs (small)…………………Anal sex….Golden showers Chores (domestic service)……………….do it all the time now Orgasm denial……………….Orgasm control……………bondage Collars (worn in private)……………………Foot worship Collars (worn in public)…….Ccock whipping……..cuffs (leather). Dildoes……………. ………… Double penetration. Enforced chastity…….Erotic dance (for audience)…..Housework (doing) Eye contact restrictions………………Forced masturbation Face slapping…………………….spanking Following orders………Food play (cucumbers)…….foot worship. Having food chosen for you……………. Nipple play……………….High heel worship…Standing in corner.
Me: Sure! Here’s my address. I can’t wait to meet you!
Cmonya Got Abecidingme 677 Phukewe Blvd New York, NY 10036
I can’t wait! I better get ready for all the cockrings, chastity, anal plugs, strapons and all the other good stuff that I’ll be experiencing with her. Hope she sends me the money soon. I’ve been waiting for this for a long time.
Random Facts About Me
I’ve been tagged!
The Snarling Misanthrope tagged me. I’ll warn you I’m much better at writing without a goal in mind. Now that I’ve got that out of the way, seven little known facts about myself.
– I lost my virginity to two women. Yes, they were aggressive, yes it was awesome but it was my first time and it didn’t last long. In fact, I think I lasted less time than it’s taken me to write this blog. Now that I can actually have experience and actually have some skills It’s hard as hell to find one. Threesomes are wasted on the young. If only I had a time machine so I could have a do-over.
-The only other language I know is American Sign Language. It’s such a great language. The more I learn the more in awe I am. It helps when you’re best friend is your teacher.
-The first time a woman wanted to fuck me with a strapon I declined. I declined the second, the third, fourth and fifth time as well. The sixth time I agreed. Again I wish I had a time machine and get that first time back as a do-me-over.
-I’ve memorize pi to the 8th decimal. (Yeah, the ladies think that’s really sexy)
-When I want to take my mind off of stuff I’ll play a geeky MMORPG (and no, not World of Warcraft.)
-My lifelong dream is to create a drink that tastes exactly like pussy.
-I was once shot in Milwaukee before giving a speech by saloonkeeper John Schrank. I ended up giving the speech anyway while the bullet was still in my body. I declared that it “takes more than one bullet to kill a Bull Moose”.
Oh wait, sorry, that last one wasn’t me. I sometimes confuse myself for Teddy Roosevelt.
I’ll let you make up a random fact about me since I can’t seem to think of another one on my own.
Submissive Or Slave?
I had an interesting yet frustrating conversation with someone who questioned why I call myself submissive and not a slave.
For those of you that don’t know, there always seems to be a big argument in the BDSM community over who should call themselves submissive and who should call themselves a slave. Frankly I stopped giving a shit what people call themselves long ago.
The conversation went something like this:
Dominant guy: God… you should use the slave title. You are obviously looking for a service oriented position to where the Dominant in return gives you structure and stability. The only worry that you SHOULD have is serving your Master.
Me: Most Dommes seem to want a submissive in the bedroom but a vanilla guy outside of it.
Dominant guy: Stay away from the submissive title. It scares Masters like me away. Haha
Thankfully I’m not interested in a dominant guy so it really doesn’t matter if it scares away masters (lowercase on purpose) like him. It’s funny how that works though, dominant guys seem to be more interested in D/s than dominant women. I’ve been to a number of D/s oriented events, the last one I went to had maybe 50 gay couples, 50 Dominant male/submissive female couples, a few lesbian couples and two dominant women/male submissive couples.
Many dominant women have expressed to me their desires for a “submissive sometimes in the bedroom but my equal outside of it”. That’s the reason I shy away from calling myself a slave. It scares women off. Not only that, since I’ve pretty much given up on finding anything other than casual play, more and more women seem comfortable with someone who just submits to them in the bedroom. I’m all for that. Sure there’s a part of me that craves D/s, but the part of me that is dying to try out new things in the realm of BDSM overrides the part of me that needs D/s.
I’d rather be a submissive with a chance of getting fucked and toyed with than a slave who’s got no chance in hell.
I’m even cautious about mentioning my interests in D/s when someone asks me what I’m into since that’s enough to scare some off. I should maybe only qualify it by saying “look, someday, if I met someone who wanted to own me outside the bedroom, then great. But right now I’m only looking for casual play”.
Here’s another example from someone after she discovered D/s was something I enjoy:
“Yikes, are you someone that lives the lifestyle 24/7? Im not really down with that. I love sex with down right perversion, but Im not looking to own anyone…thats too heavy for me.”
It took me a while to convince her that I was perfectly happy just having sex with perversion but my interests in D/s may have cost me a one night stand with someone who enjoys things I’m dying to try.
So maybe I am a slave if that’s someone who enjoys D/s outside the bedroom. If that scares you away then I’m submissive. If that scares you away then I’m just kinky. If that scares you away then I’m just jerking off at home.