I’m very excited and a cautiously optimistic about this weekend.
A friend and I will be heading to DC to attend Black Rose. A big-ass BDSM hoop-de-doo.
Tons of classes, lectures and a massive dungeon in one hotel.
I’m cautiously optimistic because I’ve been to similar events and have found the experience to be…ok.
I’ve decided not to go with any expectations of meeting anyone for anything other than friendship.
Here’s my problem. I can’t play with just anyone.
Yeah, I wish I was a total man-whore who could be with anyone who called themselves a dominant, but for me there has to be something there even for casual play. Usually at these events I’ll get an offer from at least one person to play, with whom I’m not interested in at all. I thank them for the opportunity, say that I’m flattered but that I’ll have to pass.
I always feel bad doing that. I know it takes a lot of guts to tell someone you’d like to play with them only to get rejected. After all, I don’t have the guts to do it that’s why I never ask if I can play.
I do have a number of hopes though:
-I hope I meet some new and interesting people, coming away from the event feeling like I made some friends out of the trip.
-I hope to learn a thing or two at one of the events.
-I hope I don’t get a speeding ticket on the way there due to being extremely eager.
-I hope I meet a sadist who can at least come close to pushing me.
A boy can dream can’t he?
Now I need to decide between the black t-shirt with leather pants, or the latex t-shirt with black jeans.