I’ve been under a bit more stress than normal lately. Ok, a lot more than normal. Work is status quo but my finances are stretched thin. File it under the “shit happens” category.
It’s times like this that I crave control even more. I feel the need for escape by being tied up, stretched, poked, prodded, fucked and bruised.
Why is that?
Usually I want those things just because I’m horny and that’s who I am. Those things are hot, but now I want those things for a different reason. I want them as a way to escape and forget all of the other things distracting me.
It’s an odd feeling. It’s like being hungry not because your body needs food but because your mind needs it.
Ok that’s a bad analogy.
Hmmm how do describe, how to describe….
Eh, it escapes me.
I think it has something to do with being controlled by things I don’t want to be controlled by. Surrendering to a woman with pain on her mind is a way for me to overwhelm all of those bad things with something good.
Or maybe I’m just horny and don’t realize it.